As I’ve said before…I’m tired of fighting and I’m apparently I’m not worth fighting for.
Some people really let pride and ego be their demise not realizing how much they stand to lose.
Some people keep repeating past behavior expecting a different outcome. Not realizing they need to learn & grow from those experiences.
Past experiences happen so that you can grow from them and become a better person….a better soul. Makes me sad some don’t ever learn this.
At least I know my integrity is in tact. I put in a good solid effort and I stand proudly by the choices I’ve made.
You can punch me in the gut with spitefulness and throw hate my way…I will be strong but I’ll always respond with love.
It’s easy to lash out and verbally assault another. It takes strength to take the punches and set them aside. To not retaliate.
It also takes wisdom to know that my actions affect others as well besides just myself.
Lashing out & being spiteful only hurts you in the end. Especially when you have everything to lose.
If it’s easier on you to put the blame on me to save your ego and pride, that’s fine. I’m humble enough to take it & still hold my head high
If it makes you feel better to hurt me in every way possible…except physically…go for it. It doesn’t make you a stronger person.
Play the victim/martyr role all you want if it makes you feel better. I just want you to be happy because that’s what real love is.
Love is patient, kind, respectful, understanding, empathetic & compassionate. Love is NOT full of ego & pride.
I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not perfect and it really sucks to be an adult sometimes.
This part?….yeah this is the sucky part. I know it will get worse before it gets better. It’s hard to not say all the hurtful things I want to say. It’s hard to know someone you care about doesn’t respect you nor sees your value.
It hurts to know someone you love won’t fight to keep you but will fight to hurt you. I’d like to believe I’m worth fighting for. That I’m not to be tossed aside as if I’m nothing.
I’m done. I refuse to be made to feel worthless and insignificant. To be condescended, belittled & disrespected. It’s been long enough.
I’m a kind, gentle, empathetic & sensitive soul. I won’t be made to feel otherwise. I want off this ride. Game over.
— C.J. Redwine, Defiance (via purplebuddhaproject)
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